Wow it has been forever!!!!

OK so here is the run down.....
*On the 18th we finalized our adoptions!!!!!!!!! There are 8 rogers now!
*on the 19th we won the battle to keep our home open, ( even though we are at the PA max of 6 under 18, there is a really good possibility that Edens mom will be having another baby in the near future. She has has one every 2 years for the last 20 years. and YES that makes Eden J Mercy # 10.)
* I feel like I can really breath for the first time in 2 years, Richard and I are souly responsible for all 6 of our children and that is AWSOME! We get to say what is in there best interest and that is that!
* Faith has turned 1 and Today Zion is 2!!
* Eden is walking with out her Brace!
* We bought a 15 passenger van ( it isn't running, we are waiting on some parts...But God willing that will be all it needs)

The past 2 months have been crazy. Emotionally I have been all over the place... I felt taped out, I doubted our decisions in regard to adoption... I doubted everything...and then realized the Enemy's hand in all of it.
He was attacking us on all fronts, You see he wanted us to fail. He didn't wat the cycle of " the system" broken in the lives of our children through adoption... Well we got his card and weren't going to fall for it...and every time an attack arose we thanked God for his promise of family!!!! and then the enemy attacked my health and for the week before adoption I had Migraines , some of the worst I have ever had.... But I continued to thank God and took on the Spirit of Job.... The enemy lost at 10:22 on the 18th as the judge proclaimed Zion James Emmanuel, Eden J Mercy and Faith Skekinah Nichole all Rogers!!!!!

And it has been like a weight has been lifted ...and I CAN BREATH!

Home Study Finialy Done!!!!!!!!

We finialy got a copy of our home study for Review! we made some minor corections and sent the singed copy to C.C. so they can send it to DHS!

This whole process has just put me on pins and needles... I am driving my family crazy..... But we are almost done!

I need to call the worker who is writing Z & F ,s child profiles, as they to be approved by Dhs also. Please pray that we can get them done by the end of the week!

I would really like an Adoption date in October.....I would really like an adoption date before Z turns 2!

Gotta run " So much time so little to do... Strike that , reverse it!"

School Glorious School>>>>>>

Have I said yet that I CAN"T WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO START!!!!!! I think I am counting the hours, I am just really looking forward to a structured scedual again.
Yes, Me Ms fly by the seat of my pants, spontanious Girl, is craving structure. I find the more kids I have the more I crave it. ...I also noticed that the more kids I have the cleaner the house is. and oxymoron I know, but it's true when I was single and first married the house was always trashed..... Now the entire 1st floor tends to stay clean most of the time...Still working on the up stairs . But it is still 1000% better then when I was single.
Speaking of the second Floor I now have the bigest bed room in the house empty! Thats right , We moved the master bedroom downstairs. A friend of ours has Benk beds that they are giving us and we are setting them up in our old room. For now it is a tv/guest room . But God has promised Richard and I that he would be filling it up. We both have a real peace. I t could be next Year it could Be 2 years it could be When ever He decides our Children are ready to come home forever. It just never hurts to be ready:) We are also in search of another set of bunk beds. As the Babies will be out of there cribs before we know it! I think I will really enjoy this phase of life.

So August, yeah ....

Here it is the middle of August and this is my first post. Things have been a bit up/down. The Adoptions are stressing me out...Shouldn't be , but are. What really sucks is that there is nothing that I can do! It is all papperwork that the kids workers have to do... and as usual it is in there own time.
So any way God has really been dealing with me . He has shown me that I need to stop justifying our adoption of 3 very small children, and the others that are yet to be apart of our family.
Jesus:( Clear as day he spoke to my heart and told me) " I have called you to these children and you need to stop seeking the aproval of others! "


Me: But lord I am at heart a people pleaser.


Jesus: ( through his word) “For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” Seek me and I will give you all the streangth and aproval that you need!

So if you are reading this Feel free to remind me to seek His aproval! I am sure i will forget, from time to time.



On another note I am still thanking the system every day! It is really getting hard as I have said thank you to all the workers that I like and I think are good...now i am moving to the Others. You know the ones that i mean.

Its been awhile...

I know! It has been to long. Summer is rolling on. Rchard and I moved are room down stairs, and I love it . the rest of the house it still in shambles but we'll get there. I have really benn stressing about money. I know it is all in Gods hands, and that worring gets you no where. Except to bed with a migrain as my case my be!
We seem to be getting no where with raising money for the Van. I will be selling Hair bows and Flowers at the Mushroom Festival and Hope to raise some money then! But right now I am blah!
So Please pray for me. When I worry I get anxiety atacks and my blood pressure goes up and my heart races.And i get really cranky at everyone around me! I have meds to help but really Hate having to take them. and when I get like this Richard feeds off my stress and No one has Fun.
Well I haer Babies talking upstairs so ...here we go again.
Really looking forward to spending time with extended Family tonight!

Take a RISK

To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out for another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk exposing our true self.
To place your ideas, your dreams, before the crowd is to risk loss.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To hope is to risk despair.
To try at all is to risk failure.
But risk we must, because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The man, the woman, who risks nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing.

Today word from above... to move are hearts and hands to action.

James 1: 22-27

22Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. 23Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror 24and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. 25But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it—he will be blessed in what he does.

26If anyone considers himself religious and yet does not keep a tight rein on his tongue, he deceives himself and his religion is worthless. 27Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.

Lord Let us not only hear your call but Give us the strength to do your work!!!!!!

364 and counting.

So yesterday I thank my Pt. She is working with e and is really making progress! enough progress that the Orthopadic dr. has agreeded to wait till sept. for braces to see if she can work her muscles on her own!
So thank you Miss F. for helping my baby girl walk!!!!

365 days of thanking the system......

Ok so lately I have really been struggling to find the good in "the system" of Foster care adoption. ( I'm not referring about the fact that kids find forever homes, You all know I am 100% on board with that!) But the actual going about the process , there seems to be so many holes and lack of communication that ultimately leads to children falling through the cracks and getting hurt by a process that is in place to protect them. Not to mention as A foster Parent we are often looked at like we have a third eye. Like some how we could have some idea , God forbid suggestions about what might be best for the child we care for 24/7.

Any way my attitude needs to be tweaked!!!! So for the next 365 days I will be thanking some one that works in the SYSTEM for there part. Some with a phone call some with e-mail but i will thanks some one. ( Because a little thanks can go along Way) and I will blog each day with that bit of thanks. names will be changed to protect the innocent ( where is my sarcasm font when I ned it!) I will start with the Case workers, supervisors , therapists.... Ok I'm sure I will need some help thinking of more.. So please comment suggestions!
I will start with the receptionist at my agency office ( I.E. SUPER Women in disguise) She is the go to person if you need something to get done! and is an awsome friend!

I need more followers!

For every follower I get from now till july 31, 1$ will be donated to the VAN fund! So please follow me:) I know thhis is a selfish plug, but every dollar helps. THANKS
We will also be doing a Raffle to raise money. So keep checking back 1 of the items will be a crochet rag rug. ( pics to come!)

Are we crazy for being obediant to what God has called us to?

I think that my family & Friends thinks we are crazy! I just don't know how to explain our choices in life, in a way that they would understand! Adn yes I know This path is a choice. But I know God called me to be a foster parent and to Adopt through foster care. Richard and I also know that God has called us to start praying for the children that have yet to come home to us!!!!!!!!
We know ther are more and that in his time they will come home. Trinity is praying for an siblings over 2 she is tired of the babies. and I don't blame her so am I at times... 3 under 2 is hard. But they will all be teenagers before I blink I just know it. Then we will have new issues !

and the "HARD" is the reason I don't think my family understands why we want more. From there perspective I could see why they wouldn"t understand

US Them
There are kids that need a forever family How will we take care of more kids
God as called us to this life! Are you sure he is calling you
God has provided thus far and he will What if something happens to one of you what would you do
continue to be faithful!

If this isn't your calling I don't expect you to understand!! To the outsider our family is overwhelming , But it works. Now don't get me wrong it is not always smooth sailing. I will be the first to tell you tat I am not super mom! I hate house cleaning and tend to let the laundry pile up. I am Not a morning person so I tend to be grumpy untill I've have 2 cups of coffee. But I love my family and with the exception of the kids I have yet to bring home , I wouldn't change things!!!!!!!!! But I would love to hear your thoughts!!!!!! When I was growing up our family verse was Isiah 40:31 and I am reinstating this for my family now and adding 28-31.

28 Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.

30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

I am also asking for prayer!!!!! Our minivan has lost the AC and is acting weired. Please pray it is an easy fix, and inexpencive!

We need a bigger van!!!!

At least 12 seats! If we are going to add more children to our family we have to be able to transport all of them!!!! and all though we can take 2 vehicles right now . That is not Ideal!!! So we need to do a fund raiser. any ideas. I would like to raise 7,000. That way we could buy a van out right and still have the smaller van ( that we are still paying off) for smaller trips where everyone doesn't need to go. So friends I'm ask for your help.......................

Happy 1st birthday E!!!!!!!!!!!!

A Touch of Love...
(Author Unknown)

You were six months old and full of fun, with the blink of an eye, you were suddenly one.
There were so many things we were going to do, But I turned my head and you turned two.
At two, you were dependent on me, But independence tookover when you turned three.
Your third birthday: another year I tried to ignore, But when I lit the candles, thre weren't three, but four.
Four was the year that you strived. Why, look at you now, you're already five.
Now you are ready for books and for rules. This year you go to school.
The big day came, you were anxious to go. We walked to the bus going oh, so slow.
As you climbed aboard and waved good-bye, I felt a lump in my throat and tears stung my eyes.
Time goes so fast it's hard to believe That just yesterday you were home with me.
And tomorrow when the bus brings you home and you jump to the ground You'll be wearing your cap and graduation gown.
So I'm holding to these moments as hard as I can, Because the next time I look, I'll be seeing a man/woman.

Welcome to Holland.... PART 1

BY EMILY PERL KINGSLEY

When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting.

After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."

"Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy."

But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay.

The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It's just a different place.

So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.

It's just a different place. It's slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around.... and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills....and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.

But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy... and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."



But... if you spend your life Dwelling on Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things ... about Holland.

(poem edited for this post)

SO WHAT IF YOU ALWAYS THOUGHTS ITALY WAS WHERE YOU WOULD SPEND YOUR LIFE , BUT MID FLIGHT GOD CALLS YOU TO HOLAND....... EVEN THOUGH EVERYONE AROUND YOU SAYS "NO YOU REALLY WANT TO GO TO ITALY" OR "DONT BE SILLY, THINGS ARE EAISER I ITALY' OR " YOU CAN GO TO ITALY LATER"............. WHAT DO YOU DO? WHO DO YOU LISTEN TO? DO YOU ...................

Still Speaking

So this is what the Sovereign Lord says: See, I lay a stone in Zion, a tested stone, a precious cornerstone for a sure foundation; the one who trusts will never be put to shame."
Isaiah 28:16
"For this battle is the Lord's, and He will give them into your hands."
1 Samuel 17:47
"God sets the lonely in families..."
Psalm 68:6
"Not ONE of God's good promises failed, every one was fulfilled."
Joshua 21:45
"The Lord will fight for you, you need only be still."
Exodus 14:14

Ok Lord I need A bigger Van!!!!!!!

Jesus speaks to my heart!!!

"My dear children, I am with you. I watch closely as you struggle for holiness. Often, you are uncertain of your spiritual condition. You strive to serve but feel conflicted by the times in which you are serving. There are some things that all humanity deals with regardless of where in history they are placed. First, there will always be a difference between the world’s path and heaven’s path. These two paths, while they can run along side each other for increments, will always separate. Ultimately, each man will have to choose. Every man, to a greater or lesser degree, will have to contend with choosing first good over evil and then he will have to make another choice and that is the choice of choosing My plan for his life over his own plan for his life. After that, the choices become even more studied in that the man must choose My plan in each day, in each task and even in each moment. You may say, dear apostle, that this is a difficult call for a man, to study his actions in each day. You may say, this is asking a lot. You are right. I, Jesus, am asking a lot of you. I ask for your full commitment and I do so without apology. Dearest apostles, if you give me your full commitment, there is no limit to what I can do. Look at your life. You have said yes to me on many days. Examine what I have done with your yes answers. Consider what I am building with the commitments of so many children of God who are willing to be directed by the Saviour, their King. I am building a structure of love. I am building a structure through which many are returning. Truly, your hearts, open and filled with My love, call out to others. You provide for Me a welcome to those who feel separated. If they can be taken into your heart for even a brief moment and experience Me, with My love, then they will have the courage to both approach Me directly and to accept Me directly. Please, do not count the sacrifices when you consider your service. Do not count the loss of worldly respect. Count only the souls who are comforted and consoled. Count the repentance and healing of so many who have been restored to unity with heaven. Count the humility that I have bestowed on you, dear apostle, since you began to learn about true holiness. I am your King. I can give you anything. I choose to give you peace and holiness. I choose to make of you a resolute servant. Accept My will in your life and you will then be able to accept all of the graces heaven has stored up for you. "

It's about time fo an update...

So it's been a bit since I bloged ...;.I've been tired....and not alot has happened ... Except.... F Mri came back perfect! Yup, that right there is nothing of note... We were over the moon, till reality set in. We are no closer to knowing what is wrong with her head then we were at the start! This is the frustrating part. So back to Nero. we go, this time for an EEG. They want to see if it is Seziors (sp) I really don' t think it is as she can controll it. But we shall see. It is then on to the Nero- optomologist, and Audiologist......and hopefully we will know.
But for now I will enjoy my garden and the sun .... And look forward to tomorows Kindergarden graduation!

Breath just breath....

When dealing with an Adult child with FAS, OCD and RAD who happens to also be pregnant!!!!!!!! One must remember to just breath. I am always amazed at how much This child lives in her own world with rules made by her. for how the rest of the world is to treat her and how in her mind she has none of the diorders and we are all out to get her! So here is where the breathing comes in. I was shown yet again that even though I was trying to defend her crappy additude yesterday. So it sliped out to my mom that the comments made about said persons Bfriend hurt her fealing because they are on a break........ She called screaming about me spreading her buisness to the whole world! and how itf she wanted to say something she would..... the textmessages havent stopped for the past half hour!..... and I need to breath before I say som.......

To late she really pissed me off and I let her have it and yes that may not be very grown up
But thank God for tomorow!
Good Night

We choose the path that other fear to tread..

That about says it all! As foster parent we have CHOSEN to walk a path with children that others can not comprehend. I have been thinking alot about the kids that need us and have realized that I have been afraid of bringing older children in to my home! Trinity is 9 and the rest go down from there. and there has been this fear of messing with birth order and such. But I realize by bringing in the babies I have messed with Selahs birth order. as she is no longer the "baby" And Trinity is the last child to care about being the oldest!!!
So you may say why now are these thoughts and feelings comming up..... Well we took an 11 year old last summer for respit and they asked us to keep him. There had been some issues at the other foster home , but I didn't even give him a chance :( I have held him in my heart for the past year and really wish I could go back and change the decisions I made out of fear! I wish I could kneel down and say to him I"m sorry, I Made a bad choice and I'm sorry I hurt you, I'm sorry I made it harder for you to trust others . I wish I could have a chance to hug him ( one thing he really loved ) and Ask him for a second chance! I really wish I could call his worker and find out that he has already been adopted!!! and being given the unconditional Love that I should have given him!!!

So now that I am crying into my keyboard I will simply say that My eyes have been opened! That although these kids come with more issues then babies they didn't ask for them! All they are asking for is some one to love them inspite of those issues! to look past what others have done to them and love them for who they are and what they can become!

Walk with me.....

Walk in my shoes
for one single day.
Then you'll see why
I ask you to pray.
Come live in my home
for a week or two
and then remember
I am just like you.
I did ask for the things I was given
I did choose this road I have taken
Just Walk a mile with me hand in hand
Then perhaps you will understand.

I'm not really complaining
about the stress in my life,
I know that we all have
some toil and some strife.
But walk with me, when you think
I am wrong, walk with me
and you'll start to belong.
Embrace my sorrows, and Strengths
like they are your own,
And then you will know me
And see I have grown.

The journey I take
is different from yours
My life took one of those
unexpected detours,
But this road that I travel
is not really so long,
If the people who watch me
will join in my song.
Listen to my footsteps
and watch how I dance
And then you will know me
and give me a chance.

Take heart and remember
It can happen to you,
who knows where my pathway
will cross over to you?
So speak to me softly
if you can't understand
Remember I once stood
right there where you stand.
And walk with me gently
when the day is at end.
And then I will know
I can call you my friend.

Mommy Rhapsody (Mother's Day Opening 2010)

F's MRI.......

Here I sit with Richard waiting for little F to come back from her MRI. It really isn't that bad right now, as I have the computer to play on. F had been screaming all morning due to hunger. She got her last bottle at 4:30 this morning.
Here is how the morning went.
-Up at 4:30 to make sur F got a full 8oz bottle.
-Try to go back to sleep till 6 ( try being the opertive word! I more had nightmares about not comming home from the hospital)
- 6am get Big kids up and ready for school.
- 6:20 Trin leaves
- 7 Levi & Selah leave
- 8:15 take Z to Nana.
- 9:45 Drop E at Aunt Corries
-10:30 @ CHOP

( remember to call Aunt Pammi to remind her that Trin gets off the buss at 3:15)
So, yes if you were counting that is 3 sitters for 5 kids......

Now we sit around and wait.
They just brought her back and again we wait. She needs to stay asleep for an hour to an hour and a half....
Waiting , Waiting , Waiting
Never again will I ask God to give me more patience!

Plannig for a day at the hospital

Once again it is time to be thankful.....

Really it is the small stuff the things we all seem to over look...... Top 10 for this week...random order.

1. the sun is shining, the kids are playing in the sprinkler and yet the living room is still cool and NO AC.
2. I get to go to the Food auction tonight with my hubbie , My Mamma and some good friends sans kids!
3. the Babies are all playing!
4. VOC my foster association is giving me the opertunity to go to this years National foster parent conferance...with out there help there is no way I could go.
5. ..Got to paint my toe nails!
6. For wonderful friends that help hold you up when you feel there is no floor!
7. For people who understand that " yes I chose this crazy life" but still need some help every now and then!
8. Good books
9.Sisters who take great pic's of my kids....thank you Stephanie!
10. For a God and family that love me for who I am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


p.s. will fill you in on the food auction when I get home!

Footie PJ's

Are the best!!! There is nothing like a baby in fuzzzy fottie Pj's, I just want to eat them up! On rainy cold days like today there is nothing I like more then declairing pajama Day!
I remember a pink pair with a rainbow that I wore when I was little... Wore them till my mamma had to cut the feet off because I was getting to tall...I just had to do that with a fav. pair of Selahs.. and what did she do, she wore the feet like slippers:)
So if you are in the North East and it its cold and yuck... Declair PJ day and cuddle up with a warm blanket!

getting to know me

*So y'all know the drill..copy the questions..answer them..then come back her and link up!*

The questions..

1. The most expensive thing hanging in my closet is.....?
*there not hanging but I have a great pair of Jimmy Choo heals.

2. Have you ever played a team sport?
* no i am not that cordinated

3. If you were a bug, what kind would you be?
* a dragon Fly

4. Where on your body is the worst place to get sunburned? (thanks Ian)
* The back of your thighs , I seem to do this every year when I start my garden.

5. Are you happy?
* Yes


6. People are always abbreviating..are there any abbreviations that make your skin crawl when people use them?
* I don't really mind , it is when they abbreviate and you can't figure out what the are trying to say that bugs me!

7. Do you love where you live..or could you live anywhere?*
* I could not live any where! I really like Pa , But the older i get the more the cold gets to me!!!!

8. What, if any, extreme measures do you go to to keep yourself from overeating when you're full?
* I eat when I am Bored so I try not to be..... Bloging helps:)

T.G.O.F .......Thank God On Friday

So every Friday from Now on this will be where I share the Things I am thankful for.

1.That I know for a fact F is in no pain! and having one of the worlds greates childrens hospitals only 1 1/2 hours away!
2.For Levis love of giveing hugs and kisses and always seeming to know when iI need one.
3. For Richard!!! With out him I could never live this crazzy life of mine!
4.For friends and family who pull me out of my self pitty.
5 CHOCOLATE
6. TV..... I really love my TV....I love turning off my brain and veging out....... Thank you syfy for your marathons!!!!!!
7. For this Blog where I can unload !!!!

And for anyone reading this! :)

Thank you Jesus for Loving me as I am!

Practice Babies?!?......

I found this very interesting!

Beginning in the early 1900s, collegiate home economics programs across the nation included "practice house" programs designed to help female students learn "mothercraft," the scientific art of childrearing. At Cornell each semester, eight women students lived with a resident advisor in the "practice apartment," where they took turns performing a full range of homemaking activities in a scientific and cost-efficient manner.
In 1919, the first practice baby, named Dicky Domecon for "domestic economy," came to Cornell. Cornell secured infants through area orphanages and child welfare associations. Babies were nurtured by the students according to strict schedules and guidelines, and after a year, they were available for adoption. Prospective adoptive parents in this era desired Domecon babies because they had been raised according to the most up-to-date scientific principles.

Flora Rose, an early proponent of the program, believed that babies were essential to replicate the full domestic experience. Albert Mann, Dean of the College of Agriculture, called the apartments "essential laboratory practice for women students." As time passed, however, new research in child development pointed to the need for a primary bond with a single caregiver, and social changes in the lives of women made the practice house focus on domesticity seem old-fashioned. In addition, by the late 1960s, the ideology most prominent in the college favored hard science over practical applications. By 1969, the year the college changed its name, practice apartments were dropped from the Cornell curriculum.
http://rmc.library.cornell.edu/homeEc/cases/apartments.html

MY HEART

MY

The Sun Will Come Out Tomorow

I know it has only been a few days but, come on all ready! As a mom of 6, three days seem like forever! And i'm sure Richard and the kids are sick of me. I'm not very good at being sick. I tend to go till I drop and when you want to drop by 8 am thats not good. ....

But... the sun'll come out tomorow! No, Really , the sun will come out and it is going to be like 83 degrees!!!!!!!!! So even if I can't do anything but lay on a blanket in the sun and watch my babies play ( they really are about the cutest things in the Whole world!) That is what I will do. .......

........On second thought Longwood Gardens is calling my name! :-)

Just one of those days....

...... I realized it was going to be one of those days when I was listening to thee Baby cry so I started to bounce her on my lap... The crying got louder and more pissed off... continued to bounce.... Only to look down and realize the baby I was bouncing was not the one crying...that one was on the floor staring up at my , with a look as if to say " What a dumb Ass, she's asleep and I'm down here"

E has not let me forget it all day, either!

Cold, Rainy mornings ...

...they suck ! I think I have the flu or something...Prob. just fibermialgia( or how ever you spell it) everything is irritating me, and everything hurts! I just want to be in my own little world and not have Z yelling at me again and again and again. For the love of every thing sacred and Holy, child! Your life is NOT that hard, your only 18m old for pete"s sake! Why can't I read a magazine? =/ I still love you even if I haven't looked, hugged, or talked to you in the past 30 seconds! I'm not going anywhere, even though sometimes you make me wish I was--I say that with love =) Please, stop shouting. Please, stop crying. Please be nice to your sisters... they put up with alot! Please, stop pushing my buttons...they are officially broken and will arrive through FedEx in 2 days...be patient.

If you weren't so darn cute and adorable, you'd be at the doorstep of a convent! (again said with love and tenderness!)

Monkey Minute.

Ian tailored this week's questions specifically for Monkey Minute.

The rules are simple. Copy his questions. Answer them. Link back to Ian’s blog.

1. How old do you act?- I always see my self at 18, for some odd reason.
2. As far back as you can remember - what did you want to be when you grew up? - I wanted to be a midwife and still do some day. Bust most of all I have the job I always wanted... MOM.
3. If you were to write a book based on your life, what would the title be? -Three Sundays from the Moon ! That is me!!!!!
4. What's something that you do that's considered "childish" by most? I like to play in the dirt and take naps.
5. The last question isn't a question. Write a story of a time of when you or someone you know overcame great adversity. Right now with F. and posssable Brain surgery!! EEEEEEKKKKKK. I'm a little freeked out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Once asked to write a full story in six words, legend has it that novelist Ernest Hemingway responded: “For Sale: baby shoes, never worn.”

We all know that pictures tell a thousand words.

We’re hoping you can tell us what your picture says in six.

Ok so it has been awhile!!!!

Trinity & Z, Levi & E, Selah & F

at Longwood Gardens

Our family has blossomed again!! We now have 3 foster/ Adopt Babies. Z, E &F. E joined our family on April 16. After quite a battle. But we never gave up! God told me that this little girl was my Daughter and I would have crawled over broken glass and hot coals for her! Now adding another baby under 2 has not been the easiest thing we have ever done, but this is where God wants our family to be so we have welcomed it with open arms! Z is now 18m and having a bit of a time adjusting to, yet another little one. His temper has reared it's ugly head and i am learning not to react as he screams at me. ( my ears are ringing though) E is fine as long as she can see me. Richard tells me that when I am out of sight she is Ok. But the min. she hears my voice or see's me she wants nothing to do with him. E & F ( See God has a sense of humor. Those are the first initials of there names.) They are like twins in almost every way but there Birthdays, they are 5m apart. Things with F are a bit crazy right now. When she was 3m or so she started bobbeling her head. At first the dr. said "no worries , just weak neck mucsels." But over the next few months everyone else seemed worried so to apise the masses , back to the Dr. I went........ Well after the third Dr. entered the room with a medical dictionary I knew we were in for some news!! " Well we think she has Bobble head Doll Syndrome" to which I Laughed out loud. But that is really what it is called and it has to do with her Head not draining right causing preasure on the brain:( So on Friday we saw the Nerologist and he came to the same conclusion as the ped., We will no for sure after the MRI on the 25th. God is in Control!!!!! Prayer Always welcome! Now I need to go work on my audobiography, for the adoption.

P.s. please pray for TPR on Z & F s Bio-dads on June 3rd, so we can proceed with the adoptions!

E is TPRed and DHS has moved her to the Adoption Dep.!!!!!!!!!!!